I came up with the idea for this video as I was in meditation. It was so significant that I stopped right away I had to write it down. So as I was in meditation, I realized that I had been feeling this weight over my head. I couldn’t explain it. It was like a shadow that always followed me, filling me with doubt, fear, worry, anxiety. No matter how much I tried to ignore it, it would always be there. No matter how positive I tried to be, it would always be following me, no matter how much good that was coming my way, it was there with that voice telling me, you’re an impostor, it’s all going to fall apart any minute now. The thing is, these thoughts weren’t ever in the forefront of my conscious mind. It was always in the background. As I look back at it now, I realize that these thoughts were lingering in my subconscious and I hadn’t been able to bring them to the surface because I didn’t know they were there. But in my meditation as this shadow began to come to the surface, I was able to see it. I was able to take a closer look at the very things I had been running away from. My fear, my anxieties, my worry, my pain. My first instinct was to avoid it again. Think positive! Ignore those negative thoughts! But for some reason, a small voice told me to take a closer look. So I did. I took a deep dive into the ocean of my fears worries and anxieties. And something very unexpected happened at that moment. I didn’t have a panic attack, I didn’t die. In fact, the opposite happened. I felt relief. Like a weight was lifted off me. I didn’t understand it at first but I wasn’t going to fight it. I wasn’t solving any problems or trying to figure out how to dissolve my fears and worries. I just acknowledged them. And it was like they just faded away. I could feel The pressure in my chest and the tension in my body just dissolve. It took me a moment to realize that this was all the fear, worry, and pain I had been trying to avoid in hopes that it would just go away. The thoughts I would ignore or try to replace with positive thinking. But what I was really doing was suppressing these thoughts and feelings. Ignoring them and Pushing them deep into my subconscious mind. And that is what created my shadow of fears, worries, and doubt. As a therapist, I knew that this is what happens, but I was never able to consciously experience it. What happens is when we suppress negative thoughts and feelings, they end up coming out in other, unhealthy, destructive ways. Anxiety, depression, anger, and even addiction. Look, we all have fears and worries, and doubts, but so Many people, including myself are terrified of having negative thoughts and pondering those negative thoughts in fear that I will speak it into the universe or Think it into existence. So instead, we shove those thoughts away pushing them down. Avoiding them no matter what. But the thing is, when we do that, those thoughts don’t go away. They stay with you, in your subconscious mind until you deal with them. Until you acknowledge them. They will continue to grow and grow. And Until you can acknowledge and release those fears, those fears will run your life. . I had the thought that maybe it was just me that experienced this shadow so I wasn’t sure if I should create this meditation. But then I realized that it isn’t until we share our life experiences that we realize how alike we all truly are, As imperfect human beings. As with all my meditations, I hope this helps you as much as it has helped me and much more. This meditation was created to help you acknowledge those fears and negative thoughts, so that you can truly release them, freeing yourself and your mind all as you fall asleep.